Monday, June 8, 2009

Day 22: More Weight Gone

Yes, more weight gone, I am down 6 pounds in total, and I know I am walking a tightrope of judgmentality here by even saying this, but it's an undeserved weight loss. I say this because this past week, I have been eating a lot of junk food, even though it's been 100% vegan junk food. I made vegan nachos three times and vegan pizza twice. Good God. Oh yeah and then there were the pancakes, which I made twice. Twice, for the love of GOD! I didn't make regular, non-vegan pancakes two times in the preceding 10 months, let alone twice in the same week! What the HELL?! What's next, deep-fried, vegan Oreos?

Also, after the catastrophe that was my post-migraine phase, my coffee consumption went back up to a pot a day from a cup a day. I need to ratchet that back down.

*deep breath* So...

  • This week I start anew with the emphasis on raw fruits and vegetables first.

  • I will begin each day with the Green Smoothie for breakfast, though I'll be reducing the amount of Michael's Super Defense Food powder, because frankly, there is just some ingredient in there that is overwhelming, and not in a yummy, good way. Sad to say, it might be the spirulina. Or perhaps it's the Atlantic Kelp, or maybe even the barley grass juice powder. Hell, I don't know, but there's something in there that is a wee bit overpowering although I do feel damned energized afterward. Actually, I just opened the container and inhaled it. I think it's the cilantro, which is odd, because I love cilantro, (unlike these people) I just don't normally add it to my drinks. So whatever, I'll just add less and see if I don't get accustomed to the taste.

  • Back to vegan junk food: I'll allow myself a vegan junk food indulgence on the weekend, be it nachos, pizza or both. I've finally found a decently-melting vegan cheese: Soya Kaas makes both a mozzarella and a cheddar version in blocks so I can grate it myself.

  • Yoga & meditation. I will commit to do one or the other, if not both, every day. I've been pretty good about it over the past 5 days.


God, I wonder if I am the only vegan who is also struggling with an eating disorder.

The odds would suggest not. In a way, it's twice as harsh because now I have yet another thing to add to the column of self-loathing, as if general body image and food issues weren't enough, now I can add vegan ones to the mix. Huzzah. So really, one might say that I am setting myself up to be critical of myself no matter what I do. Hmm. Interesting.

Okay, I really need to break out of that mindset; it's destructive, not constructive, even if it is somewhat illuminating.

To put a positive spin on things, I have had more energy in the past 3 weeks since I started this. So despite the demon of food issues rearing his ugly head, it's been a good thing.

So getting back on track, I'll post my food log here this week:

1 cup of coffee with vanilla soymilk and stevia
1 monster Green Smoothie:
  • 2 organic bananas
  • 1/4 of a fresh pineapple
  • 1 cup of water
  • 1/2 scoop of Michael's Super Defense Food Powder
  • 1 handful of organic baby spinach leaves (1 oz)
  • 2 ice cubes

Early Lunch:
Vegan & Raw Creamy Cauliflower Soup* see recipe
1 glass of water

Afternoon Snack:
1 garlic portobello mushroom burger
1 tomato
1/4 English cucumber
2 T hummus
2 T crunchy sprouts
1 glass of water
Late Afternoon Snack
1 pieces of peanut butter toast
2 glasses of water

Monster green smoothie:
  • 1 banana
  • 1/4 of a fresh pineapple
  • 1 mango
  • 1 cup of water
  • 1 scoop of Michael's Super Defense Food powder

  • *Vegan & Raw Creamy Cauliflower Soup

    • 1/4 of a head of cauliflower
    • appr 3/4 cup raw, unsalted, organic cashews
    • appr 1 - 2 cups of water
    • a dash of fresh lime juice
    • red curry powder
    • sea salt


    1. Blend all ingredients in a blender or food processor until you reach the consistency you like.

    2. Add more salt and red curry powder to taste.

    3. Serve at room temperature.

    This makes two fairly large servings, and is very good, though with the extremely high fiber content and the fact that cauliflower is a cruciferous vegetable, I'd suggest taking bean-o with it if you are unused to eating raw cauliflower. Also, drink plenty of water.


    Shannon Loses Teh Chubbeh said...

    I really want to eventually be a vegan. I don't know that I can do it because I am not a fan of a lot of veggies and fruits, but I REALLY want to.

    I had a teacher when I went to the holistic nursing school and she was a vegan, grew most of her own food even. She was stunningly beautiful and young looking.

    Do you think you'll go towards being holistic, or is this only a food thing for you? Do you feel marginally better? You'll have to let me know if you still get sick. It seems this diet really holds off colds and flu from what I have heard.

    Are your kids eating like this with you?

    Babs said...

    This is more than a food thing for me already, even 3 weeks in. I already feel so much better. I was having headaches almost daily for 6 months before. They stopped very quickly. Granted, I have gradually cut things out over the 6 months, it's not like I was a big meat-eater and then *BAM* no meat.

    I did notice on my very first day, detox headache and feeling very sluggish, but it went away pretty quickly.

    I am feeding my kids vegan food here. They already love the soy milk. Giving up the cheese will be the hardest thing, but they will probably always have access to it at their dad's house.

    Being on Atkins might increase your taste for veggies. I was a vegan a long time ago and that gave me my first taste for fruits and vegetables. Before then I was strictly and carb & cheese girl.

    Shannon Loses Teh Chubbeh said...

    Oh me too! I am a carb fiend and lately all I want are veggies!

    Babs said...

    It's funny how our bodies will do that naturally once we eliminate the bad eating-habits. Also, once I cut out refined sugars, I started noticing the natural sweetness in fruits and some vegetables.

    Then when I'd have something with table sugar in it, it was overwhelmingly sweet, almost to the point of sickening.

    Cassie said...

    I flirted briefly with a proper ED in high school, but I have major food issues. Surprisingly, starting WW has spurred me on to combat this in a healthy way, and I am feeling better now about my relationship to food than ever before. But yes, attempting a 100% vegan diet can and has lead to massive self-loathing on my part in the past, and it's part of the reason I gave up and allowed myself small amounts of dairy over the last six months. Not an excuse, more self-preservation. It was getting to where I wanted to chuck the WHOLE healthy eating plan out if I couldn't get the vegan part right, and that didn't seem very smart. Now, I'm concentrating on getting there slowly, and just eating as healthy as possible - not for the weight loss, but because it's better for me, both physically and mentally.

    Babs said...

    "It was getting to where I wanted to chuck the WHOLE healthy eating plan out if I couldn't get the vegan part right, and that didn't seem very smart."

    As crazy as it sounds, I know exactly what you mean there. IN the past few weeks I've struggled more just with the general urge to binge/purge than with the fact that I'm not eating animal products, and more than a few times, I've thought that it might be easier in a weird way to just add some animal products back in there, but I really do feel so much better, and I like not eating meat or dairy.

    "Now, I'm concentrating on getting there slowly, and just eating as healthy as possible - not for the weight loss, but because it's better for me, both physically and mentally.

    :) I'm trying to focus on that as well, and if any weight loss comes about as a result, then it's secondary. I tell myself that, but it's a hard mindset to erase completely.

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